No wonder the Tom Petty song "The Waiting" keeps running through my head like a CD stuck on repeat. Come on, you know the song I am talking about "The waiting is the hardest part, every day you see one more card, you take it on faith, you take it to the heart, the waiting is the hardest part."
I really hate to complain, as I pride myself on being so much more patient now than I was even 5 years ago. But come on already! It seems like forever since we started the adoption process (July, 2008 but who is keeping track). Dossier sent to Ethiopia 11/14/08. We had been given info in July that there were children in care in Ethiopia who would be referred to families soon. Well, those were slow in coming. In fact, there were a couple of families who had their dossiers in to Ethiopia a week or so before ours, and they just got their referrals. I know we are next, but it seems like we have been *next* for the last six months!
Okay, I feel better now. The logical and rational me knows NONE of this is in our hands. I know there is still a lot to do before our second child is home forever. And I know, as a believer in the love and power of our Lord Jesus, it will all work out in HIS time....not mine. No matter how whiny I get, or how sorry I feel for myself. Each and every time I look at our precious daughter from China, I know it will all work out as it should.
I have found myself going back to the song by John Waller "While I'm Waiting." It is from the Fireproof movie soundtrack, and I find the words so comforting. I try to sing this really loud when I start to hear Tom Petty!
I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait
I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait
I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord
